Why is it come people choose to chase shit, consume their life with it and then cry their life is average? “The Dalai Lama, when asked what surprised him most about humanity, answered "Man! Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result…
Continue reading →So Feb is over. It was effectively 25/28 days worked - with a combination of all areas of the businesses, and coding and gym. I should have taken time off as I am now feeling drained. As i said to Emma the other day; im chasing these sunny uplands and i just hope they are worth it. "I need a…
So its all progressing. legs stronger, balance stronger. Megan has modified the programme and ive even done my first mini sprint with T - he did beat me but progress! and the look on his face that i was able to run - priceless. So how has this been gone so far. Megan added hip adductors into the mix -…
Its been a minute. Lots been going on... Work, gym, family, self care, a cold, no sun. Its been a busy February. Lots of systems being built that are freeing up time and mental capital. But equally a concern that ai will blitz so many jobs that its time to be ready and learn a trade. Think of it this…
a picture speaks a thousand words! above was october, right leg looking weinerlike today, its looking fuller. nothing else to add today!!
How I built an automated bouncer for my energy brokerage 😇 The problem with being nice I’ve got a broker. Let’s call him Raj . Raj is productive; 77 contracts since October. Not bad. But Raj has a habit: he looks something up, forgets to…
So last week I did my first walk of the month where I head to London, see friends and potter about, eat some food (usually a burger) then get home. Ive done some of my best thinking and planning on these solo days. I made…
So back in the gym yesterday. Its time to park the coding and get back on the road to health. So xmas was a bit of a write off with fitness so it was a grind to get back in. Everything feeling weaker but thats…
It’s 30/12/2025; that weird limbo where nobody knows what day it is, suppliers are “back on 2nd”, and brokers suddenly discover urgency like it’s a new religion. So naturally, I spent my evening doing something deeply normal and mentally stable: Reading uvicorn logs for fun. 📜🫠 And… I’ve got to admit; it was beautiful. Not because I love server logs…
For the first time in about ten years, I’ve closed the business over Christmas without the usual background guilt. No “I’ll just keep an eye on WhatsApp”. No “ping me if it’s urgent”. No lying to myself that I’m technically off but functionally still on call. We’re closed from the 24th. The systems keep running. Tickets can wait. And anyone…
So its 17th Dec. Ive got a day to myself in London. I plan to do walking - lots of it to get the heart rate into zone 2 and to have coffee and drinks with friends along the way. Its not forest gump levels of walking but enough! See i used to do this monthly - come to London…
A Short Story About Contracts, ADHD, ACL Rehab… and One Very Fed-Up ArpBot! There is a particular type of moment that only appears when life, business, marriage, and physical rehab collide. Mine happened in a gym changing room. Smelling like a damp sock from starting plyometrics, and feeling off sync! I rang the office (which is to say: Denisse) to…
There is a particular kind of chaos that arrives in your life after an ACL rupture. You start rebuilding your leg… and then, apparently, your entire business infrastructure. Because... well why not. I couldn't possibly sit on my arse and do nothing. This story is…
Every business owner has that one moment where they realise: “Hang on… am I the idiot here for doing this manually?” For me, that moment involved WhatsApp, pricebook updates, a chatty broker who messages “hi, urgent, need help” every morning, and an API that happily…
Another Needless Ballache Removed Date: 19 November 2025 Coding Experience: 4 months Annual Time Saved: ~12 hours Cost: £0 Broker Morale: Allegedly improved The Gym Realisation 🏋️♂️ I was at the physio gym, doing the usual ACL rehab routine, when it dawned on me that I was still manually doing Christmas and birthday messages to brokers. And with our new…
Some people unwind by watching Netflix. I unwind by deleting avoidable admin from my life. And nothing drains the soul quite like answering the same question twenty times a week from people who absolutely should know better. So I finally snapped (figuratively; one ACL rupture in a lifetime is enough) and built a full Knowledge Base for BOS. Why I…
Managed five solid sessions last week; a consistency milestone that had to be reached by either hook or crook. It is finally starting to feel automatic again. Skipped Monday after a late Sunday (no point pretending otherwise), but heading in shortly and looking forward to it. Focus lately has been on rebuilding deep strength and control rather than chasing numbers.…
Ive got a question for you Pit: "how did you learn to code so fast?" Me: " Had a torn ACL and got bored. Ballache factor drove me to automation." 😂 Forget KPIs, OKRs, or ROI. The only metric that matters: Ballache Factor™ 📊 The Ballache Scale: Level 10: Password hunt through 5 different folders while email timer ticks down…
October 26, 2025 I took the weekend just gone off. Actually off. No checking logs, no rehab tracking, no optimizing anything. The idleness felt weird as hell. What I've Been Doing June 30th - ACL reconstruction surgery. July 4th - started learning Python. Never programmed before in my life. Not exactly textbook recovery timing, but I had two problems: Knee…
The past week has been a mixed bag. Strength training has been going well - the weights are moving cleaner, the quads are firing properly, and every session feels like another small step forward. Even banded nordics are feeling like there is more movement. HAve to keep reminding myself that it was only 110 days ago i was under the…
Below is my ramblings of what started effectively four months ago when I began learning about Python coding... This is October progress... The Journey from Manual Hell to Semi-Retirement Dreams When I set out to automate my business processes, I had a clear goal: semi-retire…
Most people might mark 100 days with quiet reflection, perhaps a journal entry or a walk to take stock of how far they have come. I celebrated by deadlifting 100kgs and Squatting 80kgs. Ninety five days after ACL reconstruction with a hamstring graft, IT band reinforcement and synthetic augmentation, the bar moved smoothly. No pain, no stiffness, just strength that…
So updates Ive been sleeping 8hrs a night for the last week. Feeling a lot more recharged. I took a full week off the gym. Sleep catchup was priority. Returned back to the gym on Monday for a heavier strength training set than I have done in 3months. Squats at 60kg (using BFR for other sets), reverse barbell lunges at…
So Here we are in week 12 post aclr op. The inner circle around me will know my mood has been short tempered and a major loss of interest in most things. Syd said im approaching burn out so its KEY to nip this in the bud early. I had a dexa scan yesterday - and it confirmed what I…
It has been just over two months since surgery and honestly, if you saw me now, you would barely know I had my ACL reconstructed. Swelling is much reduced; range of motion is back to 155–160 degrees consistently; and the knee feels like mine again.…
Update: I have in two months, part-time, built Dropbox integration, Zoho automation, and an EC2-based scheduling system and learning Python for fun mischevious projects.. But more than that, we’re building with intention , clarity , and a kind of quiet ambition that’s rare. What I’ve…
Today was my first day back in the gym since surgery. It wasn’t heavy or heroic; just rehab, light upper body on machines and slow backward walking on the manual treadmill. But it mattered. I needed the change of scenery. I needed the dopamine hit…
Day 15... finally. Stitches came out. So it was a combination of glue, nylon stitches and dissolvable stitches. The experience was pleasant and quick largely due to Hannah the nurse and Dr Alam of course. Ngl; the last stitch to come out was the ouchie…
The day started at 6am. I was up, showered and ready. There was no looking back now. It was the day. I had made peace that I did all I could to prepare and that what will be will be. I couldn't have done more.…
Welcome to The Journal This is my private space to document the road back. Injury, recovery, mental shifts, and rebuilding the version of me to allow me to semi retire at 45. These entries are raw, quiet, often unpolished, probably unpolitically correct and offensive; but they’re the real me. If this content does offend you, then please do fuck off.…
Just reading the pre admission hospital acl bumpf and listen to this at the end of the document. "It is unlikely that your knee will ever be as good as it was before the original injury" Error. Arpit doesnt compute. Ill show you. That line is my fuel. They’re speaking to the average patient ; not me. They’re not talking…
So to the 2 or 3 friends who have followed this site will know I'd parked this site as a subdomain on another site. Subconsciously that means it wasn't serious.... but do or not do; there is no try. So the domain is bought - on auto renewal as well. This is the chalkboard for the book. All my ramblings.…
So work has been hectic. Got the automation bug from a friend and have since been using chatgpt and python to automate my business workflows. Its been a game changer so far but if the next bits fall into place then semi automation during aclr…
Back squats today - worked up to 110kgs and reverse barbell lunges up to 90kg. Felt good. Had more in the tank..had to refrain. No pain no instability no wobble. Infact the injured knee felt.more stable than the uninjured one. A friend said after... you sure you've ruptured your acl??? Scan says yes. Mind says no. Full flexion says yes!…
Today felt harder. I have been doing everything right; BFR, PowerDot, strength work, flexion practice. The knee has been improving, and yet something about today hit me differently. A beyond shitty day with needless dithering delaying, procrastination, sloppiness at work which resulted in me feeling…
So the prehab is progressing well. The knee feels the best it has in a long time. The new toys have helped. Potentiation with the powerdot is unreal. Sat with legs at 90degrees they literally shot up like a bionic robot which got the signal…
I'm unsure when it started but I have never been one to shy away from buying a gadget to aid injury healing. I think it started when my brother qualified as a chiropractor. He had an ultrasound therapy machine for muscle and tendon injuries. We…
So went in for the pre op checks today and this damn cut on the left knee hasn't healed and the multiple applications of the steroid creme hasn't fulled cleared it.. Gutted but what's the positive... another few weeks of rehab..I went and collected the…
This seems the best way to share my thoughts on what is about to be my first major operation in my life. If i dont blog it, then i think ill regret not being able to look back and see the before and after, the mental journey as well as the future progress. I cant imagine many will want to…